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Pee-chu here, where I stand currently after many dry erase board diagrams is a combination of having the state of consciousness of dark net domains and the simple fact that those who aspired to be sissified have unquenchable erotic humiliation tastes and tend be as shallow as the special needs preschoolers they model themselves after, what makes a human being an omega person more than anything is having a disabled mind, early into my life something between the lines of autism and schizophrenia sent my life a very wrong direction, to call myself a lul cow is not an exaggeration as much common sense, to take a step forward in embracing anything I care for is to be something that is beyond the queer cultural, because I am so disabled and grotesque I have no place with in the furry fandom or even something like an other kin discord, much rather I was pushed away and that is how I found myself in an 8chan board to have found the link to autistic paradise in the first place, I require free speech zones to exist because in no other place does anybody tolerate my existence, (change music) hosting anything with websites has always been a challenge for me, being a medically diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic on top of having queer cultural aspirations for me to take any pursuit far enough is just be a lul cow in the end pure and simple, I can not believe any given person will do any less than murder me and my existence since my earliest childhood was always an existence among the wrong crowd because that is where the omega like end up by de facto standard, there are alphas betas and omegas and if could exist as simple as playing video games form the start I likely would have, half of my peers in real life and closest friends that I ever had are sociopaths, I got the drive would have taken many people many places yet disability and passion prevents me to end up much more than homeless, like I am a transgender in denial all of that passion just takes me to be a bigger and bigger sissy person as if to die and go to heaven is be a femdom sissification story parallel, there are some things in life that are just too complicated and every day of my existence is giving into the winds of passion like a ritualistic suicide, and since all that passion is to wear diapers talk to stuffed animals and indulge in erotic humiliation I invariably got a psychotic relationship to lul cow indeed, too look on the pages of encyclopedia dramatica is to be looking at many things that are quite a mirror of myself, life is short and everyday the world is surely taking it, (change music) despite my disabled minds dissociation and beta societies innate belittlement of anything that walks the hazey lines, all things I do with a meta goal, the underworld of my struggles does not allow me to do anything but invest my energy in exactly what brings what I need as real as survival, and in a world that wants to kill me I find more than satisfaction and tranquility in the game of being a special needs preschooler, it allows me to understand who others are and cause my enemies to underestimate the true caliber of my abilities and insights, and as I plot stratagem in this game of life so many years have passed with in the recent too many things are taking my life as real as my physical health is degrading demanding that i have to give into passion, in essence I am dying and the only chance I have in life both physically and psychologically is to be something I was always meant to be, yet being a disabled omega schizotypical person the more I embrace my passions I will not earn fame or friends any more than I was booted from an otherkin discord, there is alpha beta and omega and it may not take much to understand we are in the speed lane, it is just the severity to how hard this little machine is barreling down that high way is an illusion when you bear in mind my passion is to be a preschooler, alpha sissification, in a world where remotely walk a queer cultural line is already harrowing on top of being disabled,